F.E.E.L !!!

A special thanks to Robbie Williams for this track or else I would have never been able to express what I FEEL!


At some point I do like his cynicism and maybe everyone goes through this state of mind. Atleast I do... And for all those RW lovers here's the lyrics of Feel.


Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I’ve been given.


I sit and talk to God,
And He just laughs at my plans.
My head speaks a language,
I don’t understand.


I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
‘cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.


I don’t wanna die,
But I ain’t keen on living either.
Before I fall in love,
I’m preparing to leave her.


I scare myself to death,
That’s why I keep on running.
Before I’ve arrived,
I can see myself coming.


I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
‘cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.


And I need to feel, real love.
And a life ever after.
I cannot get enough.


I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
I got too much love,
Running through my veins, going to waste.


I just wanna feel real love,
In a life ever after.
There’s a hole in my soul,
You can see it in my face, it’s a real big place.


Come and hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I’ve been given.


Not sure I understand.Not sure I understand.Not sure I understand.Not sure I understand....

Am just nothing without them...

Had been home on the January 26th week end. A day off on Friday ensured that I had 4 long days at home in Karaikal. There was a strange peace and for the first time after being away from home for almost 3 years I wanted to just stay back.


There have been more fun filled holidays and short vacations before but I had a strange and strong urge to stay back. I just din't want to get back to my life in Bangalore. For the first time after so many years I just wanted to hug my mom and sleep. Lie down on papa's lap and watch the idiot box. I wanted to get pampered than ever before and become my parents' little daughter. For the first time I wished strongly if I could ever get back to my childhood. Wish I never grew up.


For the first time I sobbed and cried when I boarded the bus back to Bangalore.


For the first time I am feeling so home sick even after 3 days of getting back.


There were a lot of first times this time which I might never be able to pen down. And am not sure why. Just have one prayer to the Almighty... Please protect my parents well... I am just nothing without them...

A dream and then an awkward silence!

I was tired watching TV for such a long time that I din't realise when I had dozed off on that cozy leather bean bag with a blanket. I had been watching all the New Year Eve programs on the idiot box since 9 pm.


And then lo! I had a dream. I usually do not dream.


It was a maze of faces. Everyone I knew in life. Well... Almost... Each face appeared before me in the chronological order of their appearance in my life. Family, friends, classmates, teachers, crushes, acquaintances and even some regular shop-keepers. I know it sounds strange. But I did see and recognize most of the faces. And each face had an expression or something to tell me.


I was trying to reply frantically but just couldn't seem to have the energy or time justifying what I had to say. It was all a frenzied maze of faces. And then I woke up all startled and with a strong pain in my head.


And a very awkward silence!

Au Revoir 2008

It was a very nice X'mas start this year. I attended the midnight mass at St. Patrick's Church with some friends. Of course the guys were having a good time looking at all the pretty damsels around. And why not? It was like a platter of all the good food in the world. :)


2008 was a very fast year. So quick that at times I felt I was dreaming. And I wished it was just a dream. Lots of nice things to cherish and equally bad ones too to be forgotten. Yeah... I do have my share of resolutions too for the new year...


Prayers from deep within my heart wishing that 2009 is peaceful without any turmoils and awkward silences....

Atleast try making a difference!

All the hue and cry after the Mumbai attack on 26/11. TV channels filled with updates, latest pics, people accusing each other on who is responsible for the security flaws. And amongst all these families of all the brave men who gave their lives and all the innocents who lost their lives.


Lets try making a difference at our own individual levels. It does help!


As a first step, lets make an effort to vote. www.jaagore.com is a real good initiative. I have registered myself. Please go ahead and do it.


Instead of cribbing about the bad traffic, roads and all that valuable time lost in the traffic jams of Bangalore lets participate in the car pooling initiative started by Radio One 94.3 FM and the Bangalore Traffic Police. Register yourself at www.commuteeasy.com I don't have a car yet ;)


Lets all take the pledge to follow traffic rules no matter what happens. Lets take a pledge to keep our environment as clean as possible by us.


Small things do make a lot of difference. Try it and feel happy.


Lets be happy Indians! :)