Life's running!

My last post was on 31st March and today is 24th October. Whoa! That is quite a long time. This one was long due. But as someone said, it's never too late.

Well... I was just busy with my engagement, shopping, wedding, honeymoon and setting up the house (in that order). What a nice period! And it just went away in a wink. Quite tiring with all the running around for the sarees. Then the umpteen tailor visits for the perfect blouses. Teeny weeny shopping lists. The last minute ticket reservations. The arguments for a honeymoon destination.

Then the wedding in itself was a task. And that is when your wedding is just one out of the hundreds on that morning at Guruvayoor. Am sure that our families would never want any other kids to get married there. :) Frantic visits to temples, relatives' houses and journeys... And the end of it home sweet home at Chennai.

Packing again for Goa the next day was a little tiresome. And this time it was a pain to dig out the favorite shorts or capris from the dump of clothes already strewn around. Setting up the house after the return was also quite a task. And I forgot to mention about the regular cooking. Cooking has a special mention in my life because, one, I do not enjoy cooking and second, my husband's a better cook than me. Lucky me. ;)

And then lo! I suddenly realize yesterday that its our second month anniversary of marriage. Time sure does fly. Now resuming office work by 11 am after all the household chores and then back to them by 7 pm has become a routine. Life just goes on... Or rather life runs at a high speed...

25 Random Things About Me!!!

A good friend of mine tagged me on Facebook with her note. And I thought why not write 25 random things about me.


Here they go... (Very difficult to rack my brains about myself but am gonna do this!)


1) I am a very emotional person. And that is a shock against people's general perception that I am very unfriendly and arrogant at the first look.


2) I just can't fight for a deep touchy cause without crying.


3) I can bear a lot of physical pain. I have a tattoo on my lower back, a navel ring and am planning to get another tattoo done.


4) I enjoy anything low budget. Street shopping, roadside dhabas and basic huts instead of five-star hotel suites. So am a low maintenance woman. (Are the guys listening?)


5) I love LOVE. I can love anything and anybody (read unconditionally). And am deeply in love with Bholenath... Om Namah Shivaya... :)


6) I just can't imagine myself without music and dance. And yes I am a Bharathanatyam dancer.


7) I am a foodie. I love all food except bitter-gourd.


8) I read a lot of Paulo Coelho and Osho all though i read everything I lay my hands on. So am the last person you need to come to if you want to know what the latest best-seller is.


9) I just can't draw. I draw a sun with the help of a coin. So you can guess my skills on that.


10) I am hydrophobic. I can't think of myself swimming carelessly in the sea though I would love to.


11) I love kids. Till they are 9 years old. Don't ask why!


12) Am organised and a cleanliness freak.


13) I love Tamil language. And well written Tamil songs.


14) I hate male chauvanism though am not a feminist at all.


15) I believe in co-existing. So please do not peep into my life until I let you do so.


16) Am very secretive. I have a lot of secrets of many. ;)


17) I love real dark kajal and lip gloss.


18) Am a sucker for shoes and large bags. I have 18 pairs of footwear and I still keep buying heels. And I have 12 bags.


19) I sometimes don't like criticism. Don't think its right.


20) I am not fussy at all about anything.


21) I cannot control my curiosity nevertheless what am curious about.


22) I am short-tempered and moody at times. Not sure how many know that.


23) I can laugh at the most stupid joke for a real long time.


24) My thought process is at its best when am riding all alone.


25) I can barter anything in life for a sexy holiday on a beach even when am hydrophobic (refer 10).

F.E.E.L !!!

A special thanks to Robbie Williams for this track or else I would have never been able to express what I FEEL!


At some point I do like his cynicism and maybe everyone goes through this state of mind. Atleast I do... And for all those RW lovers here's the lyrics of Feel.


Come on hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I’ve been given.


I sit and talk to God,
And He just laughs at my plans.
My head speaks a language,
I don’t understand.


I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
‘cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.


I don’t wanna die,
But I ain’t keen on living either.
Before I fall in love,
I’m preparing to leave her.


I scare myself to death,
That’s why I keep on running.
Before I’ve arrived,
I can see myself coming.


I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
‘cause I got too much life,
Running through my veins, going to waste.


And I need to feel, real love.
And a life ever after.
I cannot get enough.


I just wanna feel real love,
Feel the home that I live in.
I got too much love,
Running through my veins, going to waste.


I just wanna feel real love,
In a life ever after.
There’s a hole in my soul,
You can see it in my face, it’s a real big place.


Come and hold my hand,
I wanna contact the living.
Not sure I understand,
This role I’ve been given.


Not sure I understand.Not sure I understand.Not sure I understand.Not sure I understand....

Am just nothing without them...

Had been home on the January 26th week end. A day off on Friday ensured that I had 4 long days at home in Karaikal. There was a strange peace and for the first time after being away from home for almost 3 years I wanted to just stay back.


There have been more fun filled holidays and short vacations before but I had a strange and strong urge to stay back. I just din't want to get back to my life in Bangalore. For the first time after so many years I just wanted to hug my mom and sleep. Lie down on papa's lap and watch the idiot box. I wanted to get pampered than ever before and become my parents' little daughter. For the first time I wished strongly if I could ever get back to my childhood. Wish I never grew up.


For the first time I sobbed and cried when I boarded the bus back to Bangalore.


For the first time I am feeling so home sick even after 3 days of getting back.


There were a lot of first times this time which I might never be able to pen down. And am not sure why. Just have one prayer to the Almighty... Please protect my parents well... I am just nothing without them...

A dream and then an awkward silence!

I was tired watching TV for such a long time that I din't realise when I had dozed off on that cozy leather bean bag with a blanket. I had been watching all the New Year Eve programs on the idiot box since 9 pm.


And then lo! I had a dream. I usually do not dream.


It was a maze of faces. Everyone I knew in life. Well... Almost... Each face appeared before me in the chronological order of their appearance in my life. Family, friends, classmates, teachers, crushes, acquaintances and even some regular shop-keepers. I know it sounds strange. But I did see and recognize most of the faces. And each face had an expression or something to tell me.


I was trying to reply frantically but just couldn't seem to have the energy or time justifying what I had to say. It was all a frenzied maze of faces. And then I woke up all startled and with a strong pain in my head.


And a very awkward silence!