Had been home on the January 26th week end. A day off on Friday ensured that I had 4 long days at home in Karaikal. There was a strange peace and for the first time after being away from home for almost 3 years I wanted to just stay back.
There have been more fun filled holidays and short vacations before but I had a strange and strong urge to stay back. I just din't want to get back to my life in Bangalore. For the first time after so many years I just wanted to hug my mom and sleep. Lie down on papa's lap and watch the idiot box. I wanted to get pampered than ever before and become my parents' little daughter. For the first time I wished strongly if I could ever get back to my childhood. Wish I never grew up.
For the first time I sobbed and cried when I boarded the bus back to Bangalore.
For the first time I am feeling so home sick even after 3 days of getting back.
There were a lot of first times this time which I might never be able to pen down. And am not sure why. Just have one prayer to the Almighty... Please protect my parents well... I am just nothing without them...
2.1.09
A dream and then an awkward silence!
I was tired watching TV for such a long time that I din't realise when I had dozed off on that cozy leather bean bag with a blanket. I had been watching all the New Year Eve programs on the idiot box since 9 pm.
And then lo! I had a dream. I usually do not dream.
It was a maze of faces. Everyone I knew in life. Well... Almost... Each face appeared before me in the chronological order of their appearance in my life. Family, friends, classmates, teachers, crushes, acquaintances and even some regular shop-keepers. I know it sounds strange. But I did see and recognize most of the faces. And each face had an expression or something to tell me.
I was trying to reply frantically but just couldn't seem to have the energy or time justifying what I had to say. It was all a frenzied maze of faces. And then I woke up all startled and with a strong pain in my head.
And a very awkward silence!
And then lo! I had a dream. I usually do not dream.
It was a maze of faces. Everyone I knew in life. Well... Almost... Each face appeared before me in the chronological order of their appearance in my life. Family, friends, classmates, teachers, crushes, acquaintances and even some regular shop-keepers. I know it sounds strange. But I did see and recognize most of the faces. And each face had an expression or something to tell me.
I was trying to reply frantically but just couldn't seem to have the energy or time justifying what I had to say. It was all a frenzied maze of faces. And then I woke up all startled and with a strong pain in my head.
And a very awkward silence!
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